Five years...

 Five years…

        It’s been five years since I started writing into ‘A Teacher’s Diary’. On the eve of Independence Day of 2011 I uploaded my first article that was a debate ‘We understand the importance of freedom’. There was no target, plan nothing just I needed a platform of my own. I loved writing but had no space for publication and that was obvious. I already had written couple of articles. I approached a newspaper through an acquaintance. The editor responded well. He went through my article Teachers Day. He was in tears after reading it. He assured me of publication of article. I sent soft copy but it never appeared in that newspaper. To be honest there never was  conceit associated with my writing. I tried to console myself. But was dejected no doubt. Then I decided against sending my articles to any newspaper. I contemplated on starting the blog and ‘A Teacher’s Diary’ was born. 
    It was received well within a small circle of my students. I felt satisfied. I just wanted to write and share with my friends. Had no self-deceiving claims of being a very good writer not even today. My approach is simple learn from others, don’t copy and just write when you feel an urge. What surprised me was positive response of my students and I must mention passed out students. In a way they encouraged me. When I look back they definitely were very generous in appreciating the ideas in articles and ignoring the style that needed refinement. I did improve over this period. 
     It’s so strange sometimes you feel that the article is nice one but then not many find it that way. When you are not so sure about the article it gets good reception. In a way not being sure about the article is good for it keeps you away from unnecessary self-importance which otherwise can easily destroy whatever creativity you have. My first reader is my better half who has no other choice but to bore the brunt of my creativity. Others have the option of not logging on to blog. There are readers and visitors. Some are generous enough to like the link without even reading the article. They give thumps up on facebook out of their affection for me. Good writer or not so good for them I as a person is important and that makes me humble. 
         With 55 plus articles on blog I must say I have been through writing close to 200 pages of a book. Just wanted next page to be better than the previous one. When readers, though few, want more articles from me my resolve strengthens. Writing an article is an experience in creativity and an opportunity to express and yes to improve.
         It’s been five years I started this blog. Let me admit when I started this blog the rejection provided an opportunity but I was desperately in search of creative engagement for I was going through a negative phase as a teacher. I was very low on motivation, my teaching quality was affected at least I felt that way. I was alert to understand that if I fail to find a creative engagement I will not sustain as a teacher. My job will continue but I will miss my journey to be a good teacher. There were reasons why I found myself bottom low on motivation and will share the story one day on this blog. 
        ‘A Teacher’s Diary’ gradually pulled me out of negativity. Giving me life time experience that if you are low in motivation, seeking inspiration to be positive creative engagement is the best solution. This is an opportunity for me to thank all those who read my articles, appreciate and encourage me to be better. For an insignificant writer like me the count of page visits, though does not count much in reality puts a smile on my face.

  Thank you.